Thursday, April 6, 2017

On Poems and Articles

Long time no post :) But I'm sharing this very touching article dito sa blog na to.

Background: Nagsusulat ako ng tribute post ko sa CTO ng kumpanya namin, at naalala ko yung isang article na nabasa ko na nakatulong sa "grieving process" ko kay Papa. So I am sharing the article here entitled "When your father dies, these words come to mind" by Mary Schmich posted in Chicago Tribune.

When your father dies.

Let the phrase settle for a moment. What words do you hear next?

For anyone whose father has died, finishing the sentence is apt to be easier than reciting the alphabet.

"When your father dies" is the opening phrase of one of my favorite poems, "Shifting the Sun," and it came to mind recently after a colleague's father died, just before Father's Day. It begins:

When your father dies, say the Irish
You lose your umbrella against bad weather.

In the next few verses, the poem, by Diana Der-Hovanessian, recounts how different cultures frame what's lost when your father's gone for good.

When your father dies, say the Russians
He takes your childhood with him.

That refrain — when your father dies — has been running through my head since I reread "Shifting the Sun" the other day, and I've found myself finishing the sentence in different, though less poetic, ways.

Like this:

When your father dies, it doesn't matter that other people's fathers have died, that fathers have been dying since human time was born. What matters in the moment of his death is that he was your father. Your one and only. Your loss is unique, profound, yours alone.

When your father dies, people say many things to you, much of it the same thing. Sorry for your loss. Condolences. May he rest in peace. You will not remember words. You will remember kindness.

When your father dies, if you weren't there with him, you will carry that knowledge forever like a permanent hole in your pocket. You will get used to it, but you'll always know it's there.

When your father dies, even if you were with him, you will think of all the things you meant to say, to ask, things you may have said and asked a million times but you'll want to say them just once more.

Thank you.

Sorry.

Why? What? When? Who exactly are you?

Fathers of our fathers leave a lasting influence 
When your father dies, you will remember that time, maybe more than one, that he made you so mad.

When your father dies, you will worry about your mother, who, you are likely to learn, is more resilient than you gave her credit for. This assumes she's the one left behind, as mothers so often are.

And when your father's gone, you'll see your mother from a different angle. You'll see more clearly how your father helped her, hurt her, made her less and more than she would have been without him. You will see more clearly her power over him.

When your father dies, the small particulars of his life, the kind you barely noticed when he was alive, grow into revelations.

The smell of his aftershave. The style of his boxer shorts. How neatly he arranged his loose change on his bureau before he said his prayers at night.

When your father dies, even if he was grand, you realize how small he was, how human.

When your father dies, you will become more intrigued by the life he built from the childhood he was given.

When your father dies, you have to adjust your place in the world, in your family, your sense of who you are performing for. You wonder if you can. You can.

When your father dies, you discover how others — say, your brothers and sisters — saw him differently.

When your father dies, you start to know him better. "Oh," you think, a long time later, "now I get it."

When your father dies, you take to noticing how much you're like him. It's not all good, but it's how you keep him with you.

When your father dies, you wonder what he would be like if he'd lived longer, what he would think if he could see you now. You hope he would be proud.

When your father dies, you will grieve and then, one day you'll notice your grief has dried up. You may spend weeks with no conscious thought of the man who was once at the center of your universe. You will be relieved and your relief may feel like betrayal.

But every now and then, when the sky is a particular shade of blue, or you spot a man with a familiar build on the street, or you hear the chatter of a ballgame on the radio, you will feel a knot in your chest, and to no one in particular, you'll say, "Dad."

Very touching!!!

Love link sa orig na article at sa Chicago Tribune

Ilagay ko na lang sa part 2 yung ibang maiisip ko pag nde na ako masyadong senti :)

Until next post...

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